Big Man in the Sky

Okay, here it goes, I am coming out of the closet.

Yes, I have been hiding, and no I am not gay.

Growing up in Nebraska, I because comfortable with Christianity from a very young age. Although my parents never went to church unless it was a holiday or made us pray before we ate, my family did consider themselves to be Christian. Now whether that means that they believed in the stories or they just shared the same values, I was always told that I, along with everyone else in my family, was a Christian. And when I was younger I believed them. I thought that I was a Christian, I thought that there was a God and that Christmas was a special holiday, but that was because, that was what people told me to believe. It wasn’t until I was in about the 5th or 6th grade that I really started to explore what my true beliefs were. Now don’t think that the reason I am no longer a Christian and I don’t believe in God is because my parents threw me into Catholic schools or chained me to my bed posts, because they didn’t and really, if you think that someone would have to endure those kinds of things to develop such a viewpoint, then you really don’t understand how people work, so I will break it down for you:

People have their own thoughts.

I know that it seems complicated, but it is actually quite simple. I am a good daughter, I don’t stay out too late, I have perfect grades, I do everything that my parents want me to. But that doesn’t mean that I have to have the same beliefs that they do. Even if it wasn’t a constitutional and basic human right, you can’t stop the force of nature that is individuality. I don’t have different beliefs from my family and even from my younger self because I am trying to get back at my family or some twisted scheme. It’s just what I think and how I feel.

So now I will answer your question: Are you and atheist?

Yes, and no. I am an atheist if we are talking in the specific sense of just religion, but I prefer to be called a Secular Humanist, which relates to a broader spectrum of cultural and ethic viewpoints. I don’t believe in a God and as a Secular Humanist I believe that everything that can be explained with science. That things don’t just appear out of mist, that their is no divine being lives beyond the realm of our universe creating and manipulating us. I believe that we as human being are undesigned, unintended and merely the result of evolution. It doesn’t make sense to me that there is someone (or something) in the sky looking down on use and controlling us. It doesn’t make sense to me that you would want to worship said person when they allow children to be starving and shelterless. Allow people to kill each other over resources or ideas. Yes, you can’t prove that there is no God, but you can’t prove that there isn’t a flying tiger sleeping in a humongous teapot orbiting a blackhole 30 million lightyears away, but it seems pretty unlikely.

I don’t expect some people to understand what I believe, because I don’t understand what many of them do, but I do expect that they respect my freedom to have those beliefs as I do to them.